Monday 24 December 2012

Lari dari hidup.

Ada masa dalam hidup kita, kita akan rasa putus asa. Rasa lemah. Rasa nak jatuh. Rasa nak berehat dan baring merenung siling dan nikmati bunyi kipas berdetik- detik. Ahhh, tekanan semakin tinggi. Kadang- kadang harap saja diri ini tiba- tiba pengsan tak sedarkan diri selama 1 jam dan duduk di wad sekurang- kurangnya sehari. 

Untuk apa? Melarikan diri dari kehidupan.

Masalah keluarga, duit, cinta, pelajaran, diri sendiri dan fake friends membelenggu kotak pemikiran realiti. 


Kita takkan pernah dapat lari dari masalah. Kerana ia akan selalu mengejar kita. Tapi kita boleh berehat sebentar. Untuk berfikir dengan lebih tenang dan efektif.

Berhenti sejenak, bukan bermakna kamu melarikan diri. Sedang lebuhraya pun ada RnR, apalagi lebuhraya kehidupan. 

Aku menyesal dengan setiap tindak bodoh aku, setiap lakuku yang penuh emosi. Tapi itulah yang mengajar aku untuk hidup. Jangan ulangi lagi silap itu.


Tapi, selalulah ingat. Setiap apa pun yang kita lakukan. Let Allah be the first. Ask Allah.
Kerana Dia pemilik segala hati. Dan hanya Dia yang boleh membolak- balikkan hati hambaNya.

Wednesday 7 November 2012

The upbringing


I have met many peoples at different venues and conditions. Yes, each individuals have that unique character that builds their personality. The attitudes? Is depending on how they are taught to live.

And here, I am at the corner of remote area of Selangor. Its about a year since my parents started to moved from Ampang. Ampang, one of the part at the big city of Kuala Lumpur. Yeah, I have grown up as city girl and live in the rock jungle and yeah, I survived in the dark city that people used to say.

" KL tu bahaya weihh... SOSIALL"

I remember when I was at KMPk, the first day I introduced myself. They looked at me as if I was a b*tch from KL coming to steal your BF. They told me KLians are socia, weirdo attire and blah blah blah.
Ok, enough of me.

Reflecting back the memories that I had with them, I remember a friend of mine asking me where do I came from. She was quite surprised when I told her Im from KL coz she thought I was from some remote area at Perak. Whatta? Can't you see the signature of KL carved on my forehead?? HAHA
She said I was like a Kampung Girl. I took it as a compliment though. Sopan santun gittew.

Now, Im looking at my friends in uni. The advanced one with all so accessories and dress up? Trust me. They are the one from the remote area.
We used to watched dramas in TV showing all the BAIK and feminine baju kurung shy shy pandai masak girl are from kampung and the bandar girl is the one with the rusty head, spoiled and have short dresses.

Stepping on the reality baby. From what I have observed, the situation is opposing. It is not where do you come from. Its how the upbringing. And here, me at new home... I've seen enough of life.

THE MENTALITY.

The children are spoiled. They talked back to their parents. Harshly. At 9. Yeahhh, she was 9 years old. Imagine what happen for the next 10 years?

Ok. All is messing up right now.

What I really want to say here is do not judge people from where they are from. The personality is themselves, the attitude? Its how they were taught to think and to behave. And... how much control of them over their own self.



YOU ARE THE MASTER OF YOURSELF! YOU TELL YOUR MIND WHAT TO DO!

Jeez.. thats a relief. :D

Monday 5 November 2012

Andalah sifu!

Alhamdulillah saya masih lagi diberi peluang untuk bernafas di atas bumi Allah ini.

Pada Ahad lepas, saya telah diberi peluang untuk menghadiri seminar percuma Dr. Azizan. Walaupun kesihatan diri agak mengecewakan, saya tetap menggagahkan diri untuk merampas peluang yang telah tersedia di depan mata ini. Pada mulanya saya agak skeptikal. Kerana sayaseorang newbie yang tak ada idea pun nak bisnes apa. Pada awal seminar, mereka memulakannya dengan aktiviti kecergasan. Lompat2, chicken dance and disco dance I must say. Haha. Well, evethough I was in pain all over my body the dance got me in and dance like WOW!
Pain is pain, dance is dance baby!Hehe

Setelah menari atau bersenam ringkas, badan terasa segar..kesakitan masih terasa tapi semangat untuk belajar lebih terbuka. Benarlah kata orang, otak yang cerdas bermula dari badan yang cergas! ( Cerdas ke masalahnya? HAHA)

Anyway, what I really want to say here is actually about the new strength I gained after attending the seminar. As I said earlier at my previous post, I've done something that people seldom do. And it is upsetting my parents. But, I believe. This is the way for me to achieve success!

What I have learnt from Dr. Azizan:

1. KNOW WHAT YOU WANT!
- I am actually not literally know what I want.. what I know is I want to get the hell out from the hospital and start off something that is different from others yet still able to help others. Especially the Muslims.

2. BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAM!
- Believe that you are able to achieve the dream. It is better to keep it specified at particular aspect and period. For example, I MUST BE ABLE TO HAVE MY OWN CAR, MYVI FOR THE NEXT 3 MONTHS!
-Be specific, and hold it tightly in your aorta!

3. IMPROVE YOUR ATTACHMENT TO GOD!
- He, Allah our only and the only God that is able to help us in many impossible ways that a human can think. We may think it is impossible, but there is nothing impossible to Allah.

- Do not missed your prayers! Always ask him your favours, your wishes to Him. Everyday, every minutes, everytime.

4. BE GRATEFUL FOR EVERY SINGLE SMALL THINGS!

- Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah for letting me breath again this morning.
- Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah for giving me such a delicious breakfast.

- Always, always be grateful for small things... so that you can feel and able to be grateful for big things.

There you go, LETS MOVE PEOPLE!!

Tuesday 30 October 2012

Mukhadimah


Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi saya dapat bernafas untuk sujud lagi kepadaNya Yang Esa.

Baru- baru ini kehidupan saya begitu serabut, tak terurus dan cukup mengecewakan. Saya jadi malas, mudah sedih, lemah, tak yakin dan setrerusnya membuatkan saya kecundang dan mengambil keputusan drastik yang saya pasti ramai tak percaya yang saya akan membuat keputusan sedemikian.

Namun, itulah kehidupan. Ada kalanya kita di atas, ada kalanya kita di bawah.
Silap saya adalah saya terlalu lama di atas dan tidak mengsyukuri nikmat di atas. Maka, Allah jatuhkan saya agar saya dapat belajar mensyukuri nikmat. Allah jauhkan saya dari komuniti saya supaya saya dapat mencari diri saya, dapat mengumpul semula tenaga remaja saya untuk saya hadapi ujianNya yang lebih hebat lagi.

Namun, saya pasti... biar sehebat manapun ujian tersebut.. saya pasti akan berjaya. PASTI! Mengapa?

" If God brings you TO it, He will brings you THROUGH it." InsyaAllah. All I need is faith.

Maka, mari mulakan hari dengan sesuatu yang gembira.

Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah.

Awal- awalan

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, berjaya juga saya wujudkan blog baru di sini.
Saya, Nur Fadzlina Binti Abu Talib akan menulis satu pandangan dan penulisan yang lebih berbza berbanding dengan blog lama saya. Cik Kain Batik.

Di sini ingin saya kongsikan pandangan saya, suara saya dan segala tohmahan kutukan pujian daru sudut hati kepada maya. Siapa yang nak baca, silalah baca, siapa yang taknak.. tutup saja. Ok?

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